I recently found out that my current work contract can’t be extended so my skills are back on the market (available mid-July if you want to propose something).
I’m not looking upon possible unemployment favourably but am having great trouble focusing on writing job applications. “Why is that durdlin? You’ve written hundreds of job applications in the last few years. Why should this be any different?” Well, I’ll tell you, my dear reading several: The trouble this time around is I don’t really want any of the jobs I’m applying for.
The job I want, the job I like, the job I am good at, the job where I’m getting along with colleagues and building positive relationships with management is the very job I’m told I can’t have any more. And the very people who told me I can’t stay are the same people who very much want me to stay. It’s frustrating.
Now I’m spending week nights and weekends writing applications for jobs I don’t especially want, (competing against a thousand other public servants who are in the same boat), trying not to get too distracted by the internet and simultaneously seeking out distractions of all sorts.
It also means our plans to get two kittens have been shelved for the time being and my long-anticipated holiday has been cut down to 1 week.